R came over for halloween. we watched the craft and ginger snaps (SHE FINALLY WATCHED IT and she liked it!!! i almost cried). jess and mikey came too. mikey dressed as lestat and jess was a scene zombie which is just jess with slightly more eyeliner than usual.
R was a vampire. she borrowed my fake fangs and my black cape and she looked... god. she looked like every drawing ive ever done of her. she put on this dark lipstick and turned to me and said "how do i look" and i swear my heart actually stopped beating for a full second.
we were sitting on my bed watching the movie and our hands were really close and at one point during the craft she leaned her head on my shoulder and whispered "this is my favorite night" and i thought: mine too. every night with you is my favorite night.
then later she was talking about this boy in her english class and how cute he is and.
yeah.
i went to the bathroom and cried for like 5 minutes and told everyone i ate too much candy.
jess knows. she gave me that look. the one that says "im sorry." i hate that look.
i came home and drew R as a vampire queen sitting on a throne made of bones. its the most beautiful thing ive ever drawn and nobody will ever know its a love letter.
happy halloween.