i keep playing this song on repeat. i know its from like 2003 but i dont care. "all the things she said, running through my head" is literally my entire existence compressed into one lyric. whoever wrote this understood.
i watched the L word finale last week. i cried. not because of the show (ok partly because of the show) but because jenny schecter existed on television and was complicated and messy and queer and REAL and now shes gone and sometimes it feels like all the representations of people like me just... end badly.
south of nowhere is over too. spencer and ashley deserved better.
jess found this movie called "but im a cheerleader" and we watched it together and laughed but also i cried in the bathroom after because megan gets her happy ending and i dont think i get one.
i havent updated the site in a while. i look at it sometimes and its like looking at a museum of my own feelings. every page is about R even when its not about R. the vampire drawings are about R. the playlist is about R. the friends list where shes #1 is about R. this whole site is a love letter written in html and css and she will never read the source code.
sam sent me a new creepypasta about a girl who haunts websites. thats gonna be me lol. the ghost in the html.
im tired.